I’d like to say it was because I have been busy. Well, that’s sort of part of the reason. We’ve just dealt with chickenpox, family trips to Germany, a solo weekend for me and a lot of just general business.
I’ve also been battling some personal demons – I realise that I’m pretty open on this blog and that does leave me open to criticisms and judgements. I’d like to say that they don’t always bother me, but sometimes this isn’t so true. Sometimes they hurt, and I tend to shrink into myself when this happens. I suffer dreadfully from self consciousness and often find myself overthinking things and wondering what I have done or why I am being excluded. It’s me, and I’m trying to be more open about this instead of internalising a lot of things. Part of the purpose of this blog is to help me develop the skills to talk about things that hurt and make me stress. (And that yippee! that you just heard was my shrink.)
I will post soon about the last 2 months and the sagas, but for now I felt I owed you an explanation about my quietness. I’m not going anywhere. I just needed some down time to realise how lucky I am. And I’m truly blessed to have a support network of amazing friends who watch out for me!